Friday, February 20, 2009

SoulBody; BodySoul

i usually get a daily message from my guru, Neale Donald Walsch, and today's message hit me right in the center.

On this day of your life, rebie, I believe God wants you to know...

....that money is not the issue. Having the courage to give your highest gift is the issue.

There is no security in doing something for a living when you are dying inside while doing it. That is taking care of the body at the expense of the soul. And a withering soul cannot help but produce a withering body. So do not think you are "taking care of yourself" by killing your spirit to keep your body alive.

How long will you put off what you are dying to do?


indeed, how long should i put off what i've been really dying to do like bike more often, climb a mountain, walk some more, travel to a new place.....etc. etc. money is not really an issue, it is more of the will. hmmmmmmmm.....today i will start to do things that matters to my soul not the body. ;-)

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

5 minute cure for monkey-mind


Ron Atchison
The Mayor of Inspiration Peak





We're all looking for the right answers, aren't we? We look in self-help books and churches and seek out teachers and therapists and gurus and astrologists and some folks even hire fortune tellers. But what if I told you the best way to find what you're looking for is to stop looking?

Seriously.

Sometimes we look and search too much. Our minds are filled with knowledge, facts and philosophies but we never find peace because we can't stop thinking!

Many Buddhist teachers refer to this phenomenon as 'monkey-mind' because it's similar to the way a monkey will swing from tree to tree tasting a banana from each one before dropping it and moving to the next tree. Like these monkeys, we often jump from thought to thought without ever really being in the present moment.

The cure for this is to make a conscious effort to quiet the mind. Or take what I like to refer to as a 'mental vacation.'

There are many different techniques for this but the easiest way is to find a quiet place, close your eyes and simply concentrate on your breathing. That's it. You don't have to be a yogi or a meditation master and you don't need any special equipment. If you have eyelids and a pair of lungs you are properly equipped!

Now, when your mind starts to wander (and it will!) do not be overly-concerned. Let that thought float away like a cloud in the sky and bring your attention back to your breathing.

The goal is to quiet your mind as much as possible... to be totally aware of your thoughts as they come in and go out, understanding that they are just thoughts... just clouds passing through on an otherwise sunny day.

With a little bit of practice you'll get good at this! When you first start out try it for five or ten minutes. Even in this short amount of time you'll notice a difference in the way you think and feel. But with extended and daily practice you'll see major improvements in your health and overall well-being.

There are many reasons for this but all we really need to know is that a calm and uncluttered mind is a vibrant mind. It is fertile and alive with creative energy. It has the ability to perfectly regulate millions of simultaneous activities without any conscious effort and in this same way can bring us everything else we desire.

So the next time you feel overwhelmed or you just can't find the answer you're looking for, remember to stop swinging from tree to tree. Take a deep breath, quiet your mind and enjoy every precious minute of your mental vacation.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

look within

These are the most basic and important questions that every human being must answer to the best of their ability according to Neale. and my golly wow i need a month to think about this. hahahaha

1. Who am I?
2. Where am I?
3. Why am I where I am?
4. What am I doing here?

Would you like to take a crack at answering them?

i'll try..........

WHO AM I?

i am a beautiful daughter of Goddess. a messenger of love, peace, hope, understanding, unity, and wisdom. i am a human being. a daughter to my mother. an apo to my lola. a nene to my siblings. a tita to my nieces and nephews. a manang to my cousins. a friend. a partner. a lover. a co-worker. a classmate. an environmentalist. a keeper. an educator. a boarder. a passenger. a driver. a biker. a hiker. a Filipino. i am who i am not. i am whoever i choose to be.

WHERE AM I?

i am in the midst of so called planet Earth. living in Burgos Mansion. working in Bacolod City. i can be wherever i choose to be. beyond my wildest imaginings i can be out of my body. i am where my mind takes me. i am where i tell my imagination to take me. i am in my body. i am beyond my body. i am in the beautiful phase of so called life where everything is abundant and unlimited. i am in the palm of my Goddess. i am in the midst of my creator's eye. i am being loved and embraced every milli second of my life. i am where am i.

WHY AM I WHERE I AM?

i thought fate brought me where i am but i rather believe not. somehow my soul orchestrated for this and i merely listened and obeyed. ;-) why am i where i am now still? i find joy in what i do. i enjoy my colleagues and i feel fulfilled helping my fellow beings. my only measurement in staying where i am is having the joy and passion in doing so.

WHAT AM I DOING HERE?

i am making joy into action. passion into reality. making others see the beauty of life. helping others see the beauty of being alive and enjoy it. inspire others to live life to the fullest. demonstrate what happiness is. letting others glimpse of who and what Goddess is through me: action, thoughts, words. i am God Godding through the process of so called life. i believe that God and Life are inseparable and interchangeable. i hope to be a model of life and death. that between the two, there is no difference. for the ending of the other is the beginning of another and in truth death does not exist for we are created as eternal. and we live forever and ever as it was in the beginning, is now, and will be forever. AMEN

Monday, January 5, 2009

New Year's Resolution/Dissolution?

Wow! 2009 na! it seemed like a blink of an eye and 2008 now is 'the past'. ano ba nangyari last year? kakatawa. halos wala akong maalala. ganito na lang ba talaga ang buhay ngayon? dumadaan, lumilipas, tapos tapos na. ha! try ko nga uling balikan kung ano maalala ko....................

1) dumaan si Frank at nalubog sa putik ang buong Kalibo. nagutom ang mga tao. nawalan ng kuryente, tubig, pagkain, atbp.
2) humingi kami ng tulong at tumulong sa mga may sakit, nawalan ng bahay, nawalan ng buhay, nawalan ng hanapbuhay
3) aside from Frank ano pa ba? ibig sabihin yun ang naiwan sa aking alaala na matagal makalimutan
4) attended a course on website developing held in UP Diliman pero hindi naman masyado nagamit. kailangan full time to focus and develop and not as over time to what i regularly do. sana mabigyan ko ng oras ngayong 2009 ;-)

wala na akong maisip sa mga oras na 'to. pag naisip ko sa susunod na lang. hahaha

sa 2009 ano kaya magandang gawin?

1. maging seryoso na ang gusto kong mag semi-vegetarian
2. bike more and ride less
3. walk more
4. hike more
5. swim more
6. play more
7. eat more vege and fruits
8. stop smoking
9. less time spent on tv
10. watch more wholesome movies; get rid of movies that contain violence
11. no soft drinks after reknowing that a glass of it is equivalent to 19 teaspoons sugar
12. do more yoga
13. buy less of what i want and spend more on what matters
14. love more
15. risk more
16. hope more
17. be positive at all times at all cost ;-0
18. dream some more
...and the list can go on and on but these i know must happen or else....it didn't happen. hahaha happy new year! ox na ox

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

CHRISTmUS

wow! barely 2 days before the so called Christmas. and i'm not so eager to come home. ;-( first time to feel it this way after 32 years. so much blessings came and so many gifts received the whole year and i'm spent out. would like to give everyone a gift if only i can but financially broke. ;-( maybe i give myself instead. maybe this is the best gift ever that i can give. a sincere and costless smile. then maybe with this i can find the joy of christmas and would finally be excited to come home even penniless! maybe i am being called to reconsider what really matters to me. maybe christmas is not at all only about gift-giving but making memories with the people i love and sharing laughters together. maybe i am just being very positive and optimistic. but isn't life all about choices? if so, then i chose to feel good, feel rich, and feel loved. then i came across this message below of Neale on his blog. wow! impeccable timing indeed. when i find myself heading for home before christmas, then maybe i chose to be home; if not, maybe i chose to hibernate for a change. hahahahahahaha happy holy days! ;-)

this is the meaning of Christmas.
That... that which is Christed is born in all of us.
Lives in all of us.
IS all of us.
We simply do not remember this.
And so, Christmas was created to remind us.

Christmas, it turns out, is not about a particular religion, but about all religions. It is not about a particular person, but about all persons.

It does not matter whether you are Christian or Muslim, Hindu or Jew, Baptist or Buddhist.
Or none of the above.

When you give birth to the lord within you, you give life to a wonder and a majesty and a wisdom and a love that can flow from you to all the world, and change the world forever.

Isn't this the Christmas Story?

And when we live this story as our story, are our lives not renewed, our separated selves made whole?

Indeed.

Our souls are stirred, our hearts are filled. And then it is we who bring...joy to the world.

The gift of Christmas is us, fully expressed and fully realized. It is us -- completely willing and totally ready -- to love without condition, to give without restriction, to share without limitation, to create without fear, to celebrate ourselves without shame or embarrassment.

It is us, choosing to forgive without hesitation, to help without being asked, to rush in where angels fear to tread. Indeed, to lead the way for angels.

Ah, to lead the way for angels. That's why we're here. That's why we've come to the Earth. To be a herald!

Hark! The herald, angels sing. Glory to the newborn king.

At this moment we can give birth to the royalty within us...the royalty that we are in God's eyes.
someone once said...if you saw you as God sees you, you would smile a lot.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

I'm proud of you

i was teary eyed while reading this story of Wally. May we be reminded of this as we do our Christmas shopping @ the last minute when everything is rush, rush, rush. Merriest Christmas! ;-)

It was six o'clock at the mall, and I was as exhausted as an elf on Christmas Eve. In fact, I was an elf and it was Christmas Eve. That December of my sixteenth year, 1995, I'd been working two jobs to help my parents with my school tuition and to make a little extra holiday money. My second job was as an elf for Santa to help with kids' photos. Between my two jobs, I'd worked twelve hours straight the day before; on Christmas Eve, things were so busy at Santaland that I hadn't even had a coffee break all day. But this was it - only minutes more, and I'd have survived!
I looked over at Shelly, our manager, and she gave me an encouraging smile. She was the reason I'd made it through. She'd been thrown in as manager halfway through the season, and she'd made all the difference in the world. My job had changed from stress-filled to challenging. Instead of yelling at her workers to keep us in line, she encouraged us and stood behind us. She made us pull together as a team. Especially when things were their craziest, she always had a smile and an encouraging word. Under her leadership, we'd achieved the highest number of mall photo sales in California.

I knew it was a difficult holiday season for her - she'd recently suffered a miscarriage. I hoped she knew how great she was and what a difference she'd made to all her workers, and to all the little children who'd come to have their pictures taken.

Our booth was open until seven; at six things started to slow down and I finally took a break. Although I didn't have much money, I really wanted to buy a little gift for Shelly so that she'd know we appreciated her. I got to a store that sold soap and lotion just as they put the grate down. "Sorry, we're closed!" barked the clerk, who looked as tired as I was and didn't sound sorry at all.

I looked around and, to my dismay, found that all the stores had closed. I'd been so tired I hadn't noticed.

I was really bummed. I had been working all day and had missed buying her a present by one minute.

On my way back to the Santa booth, I saw that Nordstrom was still open. Fearful that they, too, would close at any moment, I hurried inside and followed the signs toward the Gift Gallery. As I rushed through the store, I began to feel very conspicuous. It seemed the other shoppers were all very well-dressed and wealthy - and here I was a broke teenager in an elf costume. How could I even think I'd find something in such a posh store for under fifteen dollars?

I self-consciously jingled my way into the Gift Gallery. A woman sales associate, who also looked as if she'd just stepped off a fashion runway, came over and asked if she could help me. As she did, everyone in the department turned and stared.

As quietly as possible, I said, "No, that's okay. Just help somebody else."

She looked right at me and smiled. "No," she said. "I want to help you."

I told the woman who I was buying for and why, then I sheepishly admitted I only had fifteen dollars to spend. She looked as pleased and thoughtful as if I'd just asked to spend $1,500. By now, the department had emptied, but she carefully went around, selecting a few things that would make a nice basket. The total came to $14.09.

The store was closing; as she rang up the purchase, the lights were turned off.

I was thinking that if I could take them home and wrap them, I could make them really pretty but I didn't have time.

As if reading my mind, the saleslady asked, "Do you need this wrapped?"

"Yes," I said.

By now the store was closed. Over the intercom, a voice asked if there were still customers in the store. I knew this woman was probably as eager to get home on Christmas Eve as everybody else, and here she was stuck waiting on some kid with a measly purchase.

But she was gone in the back room a long time. When she returned, she brought out the most beautiful basket I'd ever seen. It was all wrapped up in silver and gold, and looked as if I'd spent fifty dollars on it - at least. I couldn't believe it. I was so happy!

When I thanked her, she said, "You elves are out in the mall spreading joy to so many people, I just wanted to bring a little joy to you."

"Merry Christmas, Shelly," I said back at the booth. My manager gasped when she saw the present; she was so touched and happy that she started crying. I hoped it gave a happy start to her Christmas.

All through the holidays I couldn't stop thinking about the kindness and effort of the saleswoman, and how much joy she had brought to me, and in turn to my manager. I thought the least I could do was to write a letter to the store and let them know about it. About a week later, I got a reply from the store, thanking me for writing.

I thought that was the end of it, until mid January.

That's when I got a call from Stephanie, the sales associate. She wanted to take me to lunch. Me, a fifteen-dollar, sixteen-year-old customer.

When we met, Stephanie gave me a hug, and a present, and told me this story.

She had walked into a recent employee meeting to find herself on the list of nominees to be named the Nordstrom All-Star. She was confused but excited, as she had never before been nominated. At the point in the meeting when the winner was announced, they called Stephanie - she'd won! When she went up front to accept the award, her manager read my letter out loud. Everyone gave her a huge round of applause.

Winning meant that her picture was put up in the store lobby, she got new business cards with Nordstrom All-Star written on them, a 14-karat gold pin, a 100-dollar award, and was invited to represent her department at the regional meeting.

At the regional meeting, they read my letter and everyone gave Stephanie a standing ovation. "This is what we want all of our employees to be like!" said the manager who read the letter. She got to meet three of the Nordstrom brothers, who were each very complimentary.

I was already a little overwhelmed when Stephanie took my hand. "But that's not the best part, Tyree," she said. "The day of that first store meeting, I took a list of the nominees, and put your letter behind it, with the 100-dollar bill behind that. I took it home and gave it to my father. He read everything and looked at me and said, "When do you find out who won?"

"I said, 'I won, Dad.'

"He looked me right in the eye and said, 'Stephanie, I'm really proud of you.'"

Quietly, she said, "My dad has never said he was proud of me."

I think I'll remember that moment all my life. That was when I realized what a powerful gift appreciation can be. Shelly's appreciation of her workers had set into motion a chain of events - Stephanie's beautiful basket, my letter, Nordstrom's award - that had changed at least three lives.

Though I'd heard it all my life, it was the Christmas when I was an elf - and a broke teenager - that I truly came to understand that the littlest things can make the biggest difference.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

Tool for change process

Change your present experience of life that is not bringing you peace and joy. Eliminate worry, anxiety, depression, frustration, sadness, disappointment, resentment, anger, and any other negativity from your internal landscape.
Change your present experience of life by changing your present perspective about life. Nothing in your exterior reality may change, but much in your interior reality will. The Process invites you to consider and embrace life-altering new ideas about yourself, about your purpose and how life functions, and about the reasons that things happen and have happened in your life.
Through this simple yet profound shift, you can turn...

- Judgment into Observation
- Reaction into Response
- Fear into Adventure
- Worry into Wonder
- Boredom into Excitement
- Expectation into Anticipation
- Resistance into Acceptance
- Disappointment into Detachment
- Enragement into Engagement
- Addiction into Preference
- Requirement into Contentment
- Lack into Abundance
- Illness into Health
- Loneliness into Connectedness
- Emptiness into Fullness
- Hopelessness into Hopefulness
- Grief into Joy
-Guilt into Innocence
- Failure into Success
- Depression into Appreciation
- Sadness into Happiness
- Shame into Pride

Got this very useful tips for changing into the better YOU from Neale. Perfect timing as the year 2008 is about to end. Looking back on what transpired the whole year and evaluating which area of life can you improve in 2009 and years after. i am very grateful for this year but i look forward with excitement and surprise for the coming new year. and may everything that's great will uncover itself in each moment of joy and bliss. amen. ;-)

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

women priests for a Catholic church; is this possible?

wow! i feel like heaven! ;-) receiving this letter below from Tikkun group excites me. it has been my long dream to see women in the altar not as servers to the priest but the priest themselves. and i believe i'm not the only one dreaming of this. this Rev. Roy got a letter from the Vatican that he will be excommunicated because he attended and gave the homily during the ordination of a woman to priesthood. below is his very brave and firm response to the Vatican. mabuhay ka Rev. Roy! i wish more and more like you will come into their senses that indeed whenever we speak of injustice, there is no graver injustice than what is happening in a Catholic church. no wonder we are still in this kind of condemning world because of what the religions teach their followers. in fact i might consider priesthood in a Catholic church if the Pope approves it. ;-)


Rev. Roy Bourgeois, M.M.

PO Box 3330, Columbus, GA 31903
November 7, 2008

TO THE CONGREGATION FOR THE DOCTRINE OF THE FAITH, THE VATICAN

I was very saddened by your letter dated October 21, 2008, giving me 30 days to recant my belief and public statements that support the ordination of women in our Church, or I will be excommunicated.

I have been a Catholic priest for 36 years and have a deep love for my Church and ministry.

When I was a young man in the military, I felt God was calling me to the priesthood. I entered Maryknoll and was ordained in 1972.

Over the years I have met a number of women in our Church who, like me, feel called by God to the priesthood. You, our Church leaders at the Vatican, tell us that women cannot be ordained.

With all due respect, I believe our Catholic Church's teaching on this issue is wrong and does not stand up to scrutiny. A 1976 report by the Pontifical Biblical Commission supports the research of Scripture scholars, canon lawyers and many faithful Catholics who have studied and pondered the Scriptures and have concluded that there is no justification in the Bible for excluding women from the priesthood.

As people of faith, we profess that the invitation to the ministry of priesthood comes from God. We profess that God is the Source of life and created men and women of equal stature and dignity. The current Catholic Church doctrine on the ordination of women implies our loving and all-powerful God, Creator of heaven and earth, somehow cannot empower a woman to be a priest.

Women in our Church are telling us that God is calling them to the priesthood. Who are we, as men, to say to women, "Our call is valid, but yours is not." Who are we to tamper with God's call?

Sexism, like racism, is a sin. And no matter how hard or how long we may try to justify discrimination, in the end, it is always immoral.

Hundreds of Catholic churches in the U.S. are closing because of a shortage of priests. Yet there are hundreds of committed and prophetic women telling us that God is calling them to serve our Church as priests.

If we are to have a vibrant, healthy Church rooted in the teachings of our Savior, we need the faith, wisdom, experience, compassion and courage of women in the priesthood.

Conscience is very sacred. Conscience gives us a sense of right and wrong and urges us to do the right thing. Conscience is what compelled Franz Jagerstatter, a humble Austrian farmer, husband and father of four young children, to refuse to join Hitler's army, which led to his execution. Conscience is what compelled Rosa Parks to say she could no longer sit in the back of the bus. Conscience is what compels women in our Church to say they cannot be silent and deny their call from God to the priesthood. Conscience is what compelled my dear mother and father, now 95, to always strive to do the right things as faithful Catholics raising four children. And after much prayer, reflection and discernment, it is my conscience that compels me to do the right thing. I cannot recant my belief and public statements that support the ordination of women in our Church.

Working and struggling for peace and justice are an integral part of our faith. For this reason, I speak out against the war in Iraq. And for the last eighteen years, I have been speaking out against the atrocities and suffering caused by the School of the Americas (SOA). Eight years ago, while in Rome for a conference on peace and justice, I was invited to speak about the SOA on Vatican Radio. During the interview, I stated that I could not address the injustice of the SOA and remain silent about injustice in my Church. I ended the interview by saying, "There will never be justice in the Catholic Church until women can be ordained." I remain committed to this belief today.

Having an all male clergy implies that men are worthy to be Catholic priests, but women are not.

According to USA TODAY (Feb. 28, 2008) in the United States alone, nearly 5,000 Catholic priests have sexually abused more than 12,000 children. Many bishops, aware of the abuse, remained silent. These priests and bishops were not excommunicated. Yet the women in our Church who are called by God and are ordained to serve God's people, and the priests and bishops who support them, are excommunicated.

Silence is the voice of complicity. Therefore, I call on all Catholics, fellow priests, bishops, Pope Benedict XVI and all Church leaders at the Vatican, to speak loudly on this grave injustice of excluding women from the priesthood.

Archbishop Oscar Romero of El Salvador was assassinated because of his defense of the oppressed. He said, "Let those who have a voice, speak out for the voiceless."

Our loving God has given us a voice. Let us speak clearly and boldly and walk in solidarity as Jesus would, with the women in our Church who are being called by God to the priesthood.

In Peace and Justice,
Rev. Roy Bourgeois, M.M.
PO Box 3330, Columbus, GA 31903

Friday, November 14, 2008

black or white?



i love this short video i found in TEN. indeed, we, Filipinos, especially the women would spend thousands just to change their skin and would actually buy all the whitening products for the skin, face, armpits, 'singit', etc., etc.

are we not happy with our color? can't you see the irony of all these? the white people love to be black or brown and the brown would like to be white. maybe the key word here is be happy with what you have and be contented with what is given. yep the latest technology now offers endless possibilities and i don't object with that but it's just the kind of attitude that maybe i resist for the majority of women has this idea that being white is beautiful. is that so?

Thursday, November 13, 2008

lamierda sa Bohol 3


the chocolate hills ;-)

the beautiful sunset in Dumaluan Resort, Panglao island

sa likod ng aking ninuno na ngayon ay isa ng rebulto. sa blood compact site in Bohol

the Loboc River

the group of performers who rendered us Filipino songs and danced the Philippine dances like Tinikling, etc.

lamierda sa Bohol 2


cruising the Loboc river. it was good with nice singer and a short show of Philippines dances

ang pipit nga nakit an namon sa sulod sang Hinagdanan Cave

Dinner provided by RC Tagbilaran when we joined their club meeting. with Helen and Olive

hay.....na flat tire amon salakyan from Chocolate Hills going to Baclayon church while we were in man-made forest so may stretching kami for a few minutes. ;-)

sa chocolate hills with olive

francis, mavis, bert, olive, and i

on the way up to chocolate hills viewing area with Paul Rogers and Olive

with Francis in Hinagdanan Cave

a little break after searching for tarsiers in their sanctuary

with olive in Bohol Deaf Academy

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

lamierda sa Bohol

i was in Bohol October 11-20, 2008 to join the team of Rotary Club of Canterbury, Australia for eye and ear screening in pre-selected towns of Bohol. This yummy lechon was served to us by the mayor of Anda when we were invited for dinner before heading back to Tagbilaran. and this is not the sole lonely lechon ever served, they were twins! hay........super sarap! but i can only eat much especially when my all time favorite crabs, shrimps, and sea shells are also present. ;-)

we visited the project of cbm partner, IDEA Philippines, called Deaf Academy of Bohol and i found myself cremated in this thingy. ;-)

of course after the 5day series of screenings we deserve a bit of rest and recreation so one sunless Saturday off we went for a day tour of Bohol. this one taken in the tarsier sanctuary.

and this is one of the cute little tarsiers we saw. so small creature with very big funny eyes and it can turn its head 180 degrees. wow! wish i can do the same as well. hehe

for our rest and recreation we stayed in dumaluan beach resort in panglao island. i don't like it there at all. the front beach is not even nice. we walked 2-3 meters and the water is still knee high. hay.......didn't enjoy swimming in the beach but instead swam in their pool. ;-(

Thursday, October 23, 2008

staying in my dream hotel of long ago

dati tinitingala ko lang ang Heritage Hotel sa kanyang kagandahan lalo na pag pasko sa nagsasayawang mga christmas lights at palamuti and i was asking myself ano ba meron sa hotel na ito at palaging puno ng tao? mahal kaya tumira dito? ano kaya itsura ng mga kwarto? makakacheck-in kaya ako one day dito?

So can you just imagine my excitement when i was invited to the AYAD programmatic workshop and knew i will be staying in Heritage Hotel? you bet i was so looking forward to it. and so the first thing i did entering the room is to look at the window and this is the sight of Roxas Boulevard that greeted me. surprised gid ko kay indi maayo katraffic unlike before. i love what Bayani has done to the streets of Manila.

dining in Heritage restaurant. masarap ang food nila which was buffet style, love the varities as well but i would still prefer the buffet table of Richmonde Hotel in Ortigas.

with my boss, Mavis, and Meagan, current AYAD volunteer assigned in Ateneo.

group picture before we all head back home

finally! it's over and done. ;-)