it's been a while that i have not written something here. hmmmm went through a tunnel that i could say changed my life and enriched me all the same. it was not easy but i believe that when you're down there's no way but up. so i rise up as a stronger, kinder, more passionate, more compassionate human soul. it gets harder at times but when you look back and realized all you did is love, then regrets should not set in. another way to get over is to forgive myself and be even more kind.
over the weekend, i watched The Kite Runner. if i shed tears reading the book, it's the same with the movie. what hit me was when the father told his son, Amir, that there's only one sin in the world, and the rest is just a variation of it, and that is stealing. when you lie, you steal someone his/her right to truth; when you kill, you steal life not only from the victim but also to those who love him/her. a father, a mother, a child, a friend, etc. well, of course the end of the story is that the son found out that his father lied to him and his half-brother. it is true indeed that what you usually condemn in others, you condemn it within. there is something within you that which you abhor and it is always worth the self-examination before we say 'bad' things about others.
why it hit home? that is just what i've been through recently kaya siguro sya nanatiling nakatatak sa utak ko. kakabasa ko lang din from the book i bought last night, Sex tips for the Living, that i must befriend the intolerant side of me. kailangan kong isipin palagi na wala sa ibang tao ang mali kundi sa akin. i think that's what you call being responsible only for your own because we can never change other people to suit our taste. and if we become responsible for our own life, we stopped playing the victim. mas madali kasing magturo ng mali o kasalanan ng iba para majustify natin ang ating reaction pero nawawala ang ating power na magdesisyon para sa atin. hindi nagiging mabuti para sa ating sarili na hindi panghawakan kung ano ang mga nangyayari sa atin. otherwise we will never grow for we believe that we are just victims and therefore not responsible and liable to our own actions.
another movie that i watched last night is the local film U Take my Breath Away with Piolo and Angelica. What Nova Villa said to Majoy na hindi mahalaga kung nasaktan ka sa isang relasyon o hindi naging maganda ang ending nito, ang mas mahalaga kasi naranasan ng puso mong magmahal ng totoo. o di ba sapul!? naniniwala ako na ang mensahe ng Dios ay dinadaan minsan sa kanta, sa pelikula, sa binabasa, sa nakikita, at sa lahat ng pwede mong mapansin kasi hindi sya talaga nawawala kahit isang segundo, kailangan lang nating makinig a t maging observative.
andito pa rin ang sakit pero palagi kong kinukuwestiyon bakit ba ako nasasaktan? kung ang purpose ng isang relasyon ay magmahal at magpasaya at maging daan para mag grow ang isang tao, nafulfill ko yun kaya dapat masaya ako. nasaktan ako kasi nag expect ako na dapat ang tao hindi nagsisinungaling, dapat sinasabi palagi ang totoo pero hindi ko pala hawak yun. ang totoo ay hindi nila kailangan maging totoo at tapat sa akin just because i'm true and honest to them. kailangan kong tanggapin na iba iba ang tao at hindi sila dumarating para patotohanan ang pinaniniwalaan ko. sa aspetong ganito, pinasasalamatan ko si Katie Byron with The Work. malaking influence sya sa aking pananaw sa buhay. kailangan talagang kwestiyunin palagi ang aking mga naiisip para malaman kung saan nanggagaling ang sakit. and most of the times, it is our thoughts that is hurting us. we thought that things must be this way and if they turn out otherwise, then we are hurt but we can get on and go beyond the thought and be really happy. and that is what she calls accepting what is. siempre hindi ganun kadali palagi pero sino ba ang nagsabi na madali lang mabuhay? hahahaha
life is still amazing with all its intricacies. live well. love much. laugh often. ;)) happy Monday!
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